I like some things; Other things not so much.
I’m hating every minute of trying to find a job and having to stick with the job I have and hate until i find another. My friends all think I’m doing wrong by them, I’m just trying to move on. I’ve grown out of Emerald and everyone in it. i have my select few, special enough to have kept me around this long, now they have started their own lives and honestly, I’m so lonely. Everyday is another drama, something I’m doing that is hurting someone. I fix it with one person, the next person is unhappy. Its a vicious circle that I cant seem to keep up with. The saddest part is, I’m not even trying to do anything wrong. I’m trying to get my life up and going as well as keep everybody around me happy. I have slowly started to figure out, its either one or the other, I cant do both and be happy myself. I’ve decided to do what I’ve always wanted to do. Move on, Build my own life, do what I’m passionate about and live my life. I’m tired of trying to live for everybody else.
